For the past few nights, I could not get a decent sleep.There are few things that keep disturbing me.Plus sometime i get this 'kna tindih' phenomena.if u know what i mean.Its not that scary when you kinda get used to it.I can't really scientifically,maybe sometime at those moment, I was kinda tired. However there are times that I was not tired at all,I still experienced the same thing.
Well,thats not the real reason why I couldn't sleep.Since last week,a few events have occurred.
Lets start with my academic stuff.Last week,I have to skip 2 days of classes in order to get my agreement with MARA done.I missed some classes and a couple of quizzes.I planned on catching up on last weekend.Unfortunately my debate training started at the same time.So I had to juggle them as my replacement quizzes were given at same time.Even though I succeeded to polish my debating skills and obtain average marks,I'm not happy.because I know I could've done better.
Thats is not also the real reason that I couldn't sleep.Because I can still catch up as I have plenty of free time in the weekends(I have 3 days 4 weekend =P).
In life,there are times that you have to make a difficult decision.I believe this is one of those. I was invited to join usrah by ISMA. Honestly,I don't have a problem joining it.In fact this is one of the best way to learn about our religion. The best way to learn about 'jatidiri'(not by a lecture filled with 1000 of students in a hot hall even the air-cond is on!!).It requires continuous systematic learning process. My only problem;commitment. That might be a reason why I don't have a girlfriend =P haha anyway for now,I'm kinda into a lot if things.Studies,debate,sports,time for my own and blablabla. Plus,I don't really like to be attached to any organization. I have joined other usrah before this,but since they are located in KL,I rarely keep track with them.
When I give a deep thought into it,I realized those are just lame excuses. Of course I do have a lot of things to do but if I put effort into it,I can find a time to squeeze in my schedule.Its about you really want it or not.
I'm writing this early in the morning,consequence of couldn't sleep.Actually I did sleep,but I woke up around 3.Come to think of it,this is good for me.Wake up early,do some study. Sounds good =)
p/s:i slept at 10 last night =P
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